My father put customers on probation if they came into the cafe drunk or unruly, and knew that customers would always return because they trusted him.

Author Rockie Lyons

Welcome to my website.

After an academic and corporate career, I wrote a memoir about growing up in a family-owned, small diner in the Midwest. My parents were north stars of the community. Bob’s Cafe became a landmark where customers enjoyed my parents’ humor as much as the food.

I began my memoir journey writing about working in my parents’ diner during the 1950’s and 1960s. My parents taught me that customers don’t care if you are tired. You need to make the customers satisfied and happy with their food and service.

Then chaos came at us through gun violence in 1982.

When I started writing about my parents’ diner, I admit I struggled with words, reflections and feelings about what it was like to lose my sister in a violent and tragic manner. I told stories of how my parents could not talk about grief, loss or trauma. I found that I began to have a voice that had been silent for so many years. I wanted to talk about it, knowing that it often made people uncomfortable. So I started writing and looking for meaning in how my story could encourage the silent survivors of gun violence and tragedy to talk about it. I challenge each of you to think about grief and talk about what it means in your life. What does it mean for your circle of friends and family to share stories of joy and sorrow. I think sharing our suffering is a way to heal. I struggled with being vulnerable in telling my story, yet I found some strength and healing in sharing how my stoic family and myself survived over the last forty years.

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My Press

I’m excited to share with you various articles I wrote and NPR radio interviews that highlight my personal experiences of grief and loss.

May 2024


Rockie writes about memories of her sister Rhonda.

August 2023


Rockie shares stories of growing up at Bob’s in Sioux Falls, South Dakota

July 2023


Rockie shares what it was like losing her sister in 1982 in gun violence.

May 2024


Rockie makes a connection with a work colleague on a Portland restaurant patio.

In the spring of 2023, four digital news organizations republished an opinion editorial I wrote for Mary Swander’s Emerging Voices publication. I write about sorting through my sister’s belongings and how quickly my father and I exchanged roles.

Emerging Voices

February 2023


March 2023


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February 2023


February 2023


Growing Up In a Diner and Losing My Sister To a Mass Shooting

Take a peek at my new book!

Chapter One

The Sacramento police station looked like a government building: gray and drab, one level with a sign indicating where to park when doing police business. I thought Dad might not go inside with me, and I didn’t ask.

After he parked the car, I opened the door to get out. I was surprised when Dad turned off the engine and said, “Let’s go.”

We entered the building, not knowing where we were going. To the left, a uniformed policeman greeted us from behind a counter with a large open window that protected the space. It was a secure area where no one but police officers were allowed.

“Can I help you?” he asked.

Rhonda and the author’s children

“Hi, I’m here with my dad to pick up my sister’s purse. Rhonda Faye Lyons. She died in the Mother Lode Bar shooting on October 1. I was told you have her purse.” 

My words sounded so forced and matter-of-fact. I couldn’t believe this was happening. I showed my driver’s license, which displayed my birth name, Rocklae. 

“Okay, let me go find it,” he said. Then he got up and walked into the bowels of the police station. 

I felt nothing—no drama or sense of danger. Yet I was standing in the police station, picking up one of the last things Rhonda touched.

She did nothing wrong. Why am I at the police station? I wondered. My emotional mind was in conflict with my rational mind. 

The officer returned moments later, carrying what I immediately knew was my sister’s purse, brown leather with flowers carved into the side and a long shoulder strap.   

“Is this it? Do you recognize it?” he asked.

I nodded, trying not to cry. I took the purse from him and opened it. I saw that it was filled with Kleenex, cigarettes, and some loose change. I touched her comb, which held one of her long blonde hairs.

It was her Rhonda comb.

#

Rhonda loved to comb Dad’s hair when she was little. He would lie on the couch, numb with fatigue after working eighteen-hour days, and Rhonda would climb behind him and gently comb all his hair forward, part it, then brush it again.  Sometimes he would sit on the floor, and she would climb onto his shoulders and run the comb backward and forward over and over. 

Years later, Rhonda was struggling to build new clientele for her hairdressing business in Sacramento. She was young, just out of beauty school, with no real business experience or clients. One day, Dad called me with an idea: we’d imprint Rhonda’s business name and phone number on combs and use them as marketing giveaways. 

 “Everyone needs a comb. Let’s make it easy for people to call and make an appointment with Rhonda,” he said.

I thought the idea was brilliant. Dad was always looking for ways to market Bob’s Café, our family’s diner. He loved the challenge of trying to solve problems and increase business opportunities. 

#

A twenty-foot neon sign above the café displayed a caricature of my mother in a carhop uniform. She wore a pillbox hat with a pink plume standing straight up, a pink blouse, and a black skirt. She held a curb tray with a mouthwatering milkshake and juicy cheeseburger. Local legend was that airline pilots used the illuminated sign—Mom’s caricature and Dad’s name in bright lights—as a landmark for flying into the flatland Sioux Falls airport at night.

A photographer came to the parking lot when I was eight and took a picture of my mother dressed up in the carhop uniform. I wondered at the time why she was dressed that way. Later, when I saw the sign, I recognized the significance of the photograph. And I smile today at the thought of my parents, twenty feet high, lighting up the sky, welcoming visitors. 

#

“Rhonda, why are you late again?” Ron, the owner of the hair salon, called out somewhat impatiently one day when Rhonda was, again, late. He’d been outside the shop, probably looking up the road for his missing employee.

“I guess my alarm didn’t go off,” she responded, smiling as she climbed off the back of her boyfriend’s Harley-Davidson with a set of crutches in hand. Then, she arranged them to support herself and steadily limped into the salon.

Holding the door for her, Ron whispered in her ear in a firm voice, “Your client has been here waiting for fifteen minutes and is not happy,”

“I’ll sweeten him up,” she said confidently. She limped into the salon, then swung her purse onto her station’s countertop and leaned the crutches against the counter.

“Hi, Jeff, what’s rollin’?” Rhonda asked her client as she laughed and grabbed her scissors and Rhonda comb. “Wash first or just razor cut?”

“You’re late, and if you didn’t give such damn good haircuts, I wouldn’t keep coming back. Razor cut.” Jeff tried to be annoyed but enjoyed the banter. 

Jeff was a district attorney, a customer for more than a year, and he tolerated Rhonda’s antics. Large mirrors on Rhonda’s station enabled her to have eye contact with clients while cutting their hair. She used it to her advantage to read customers’ moods, always with an angle to ensure a happy experience. 

Rhonda limped to stand behind Jeff, who was sitting in the chair, waiting.

“What happened to your foot?” he asked.

Throwing back her long blonde hair and laughing, she said, “Oh, it’s a stupid thing, but I dropped a glass that ripped the muscle on my big toe. If I didn’t get it fixed, doc said I wouldn’t be able to keep my balance.” She laughed again. “Like I’m already balanced. It’s more of a nuisance than anything,”

She got started clipping Jeff’s hair.

“Sorry. Does it hurt?” he asked.

“Not really. Only when I try to play softball on crutches. For some reason, I can’t run very fast with these sticks.” She pointed her scissors at her crutches. 

Then she twirled Jeff around in the chair so she could cut the other side of his head.

“What are you doing tonight?” he asked.

“Oh, not much. I’m going to meet my friend Pam at the Mother Lode. They’re having an end-of-the-summer party. Should be low-key. Pam has a friend who lives around the corner from the bar. We’re going to meet him and then maybe go to a movie.”

“Sounds like a nice, relaxing Friday night,” Jeff said. 

Comments

8 responses

  1. Dianne Hufford Avatar
    Dianne Hufford

    Great read! I sat in my car reading. Couldn’t put it down until the end of chapter. I need to buy the book. Is it on Amazon? Ima was my favorite Auntie and only Aunt referred to as Auntie. I missed her so much when we moved. She was fun and funny.

  2. Lukie B. Avatar
    Lukie B.

    Awesome chapter!! My mind’s eye visualized every memory. Your old neighborhood. The cafe, that served me my first ever glazed donut. Rhonda’s long blonde hair and big blue eyes. Uncle Bob’s laugh (that you inherited!) Auntie Ima was always a favorite. Loved it when she visited my mom (her sister) in Oregon. They looked so much alike, other than their hair color. For weeks, people would comment, “I saw your mom in town last week. When did she color her hair!?” LOL!!
    I am looking forward to the full book!

  3. Donna Moss Avatar
    Donna Moss

    Chapter one is captivating. I am fortunate to have known the characters. Not only did I know them, I loved them. I was in this story with the author, her sister, and even the neighbors. I can’t wait to read the entire book.
    Thanks Rockie for the sneak peek.

  4. Lori Dyck Avatar
    Lori Dyck

    Rockie. I enjoyed reading the first chapter. I truly look forward to hold the book in my hands. Though, I only worked at the cafe a brief 3-4 days????…..Uncle Bob ran a tight ship. Great place to eat and great atmosphere
    This book about grief and your family will be wonderful for all who have lost a loved one. Rhonda was a real spitfire with her big eyes and wit. I want to buy this story.

  5. Sandy Reed Avatar
    Sandy Reed

    And my heart breaks again. ????????????????❤️

  6. Laurie Serdahl Avatar
    Laurie Serdahl

    I know you still carry the grief, Rockie. I ache for you, and for the loss of the life that should have been.

  7. Paul Bott Avatar

    Hi Rockie. Just came across this today, Memorial Day, and read the first chapter. Please find a publisher. I want my girls to read this, as both were in Bob’s at least once on visits to SF. It was great talking to you last year and to learn that the sign is still alive in the museum.

  8. Jackie Briggs Avatar
    Jackie Briggs

    Hi Rockie
    I easily remember when you told me the story of your sister’s death and it has stayed with me. I am thrilled you wrote a memoir. Is there a way to buy it? Have you self published?

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